let's tag

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, what’s the first thing you say?
demmit!! you look damn good! hot stuff...

2. How much cash do you have on you?
15 ringgit ngam2

3. What’s a word that rhymes with “TEST”?
Digest?

4. Favorite planet?
Earth definitely... without it, *sigh* where would i be?

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
Mr Burn from Era

6. What is your main ring tone on your phone?
Don't upset the music by The Noisettes

7. What shirt are you wearing?
shirt? now? nada... i am the bare chested man (hahahaha)

8. Do you “label” yourself?
Oh definitely....

9. Name the brand of your shoes you’re currently wearing?
Bata

10. Bright or Dark Room?
Bright

11. What were you doing at midnight last night?
on a boat in Melaka... was fun hahahahaha

12. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
"dah jumpe heheh samb balik tido ke?"

13. What’s a saying that you say a lot?
erm.. lemme see

14. Who told you they loved you last?
me madre

15. Last furry thing you touched?
my... urm... urm... leg? hahahahah

16. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past three Days?
Nil... alhamdulillah so far so good

17. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
r u like stuck in the past? y do i need to develop roll of film????

18. Favorite age you have been so far?
18 huhuhuhu

19. Your worst enemy?
myself... always and forever

20. What is your current desktop picture?
it's not my pc actually it's a picture of a hillside or something

21. What was the last thing you said to someone?
"aku tak suke seri muke dia.... aku suke kasui dia sedap... heheheheh" me to my housemate about the kuih that he bought

22. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?
a million bux because i do not have major regret :D

23. Do you like someone?
not sure anymore if i like anyone....

24. The last song you listened to?

3rd eye blind how's it gonna be

thanks puteih for tagging me huhuhuhu

As we grow older

I just watched Hurt Locker, a drama movie about a band of army who's job is to disarm bombs in Iraq. It's not really an action movie because not much of mortar being tossed, or death toll was not much in the movie. Plus the name itself portrays that it's a crama and not an action movie. Initially i thought that it's an "army war" movie. AS the movie progresses i saw something that beyond my expectations. I saw the struggles that these army had to face day in and day out. Each and everyday every time they receive a call about a bomb, they face to face two ways of certain death; first, the bomb might just explode suddenly or if the person who's suppose to detonate it cut the wrong wire or made a dire mistake, the other one is the death threat that was brought by the people arround who hates US military's gut. They might snipe them or just blow the place up.

It was an interesting movie, but what grab my interest was, when the protagonist, played by Jeremy Renner. talked to his son solemnly, which was about a year or so. He said something like this:

"you love everything don't you? You love your mommy, you love your daddy, you love your natural pyjama,. you even love your toys. One day you'll realize that the jack in the box that you love so much is just a plush toy in a can. And when you reach my age, you will only have one or thing that you really love as for me, i have only one."

to hear this sort of word from an army officer who smiles at the sight of death is something very interesting.

Then it got me thinking is it true? As we grow older, will the things that we love be narrowed down to a few limited numbers? why so? is it because we are too preoccupied with our work and responsibilities that we ignore the things that we love. or do we lost the ability to love anything that provides us with fun and joy?

think about it and take our time to figure out what and who do we still love at this point. as for me... it has been narrowed down to a few limited people and things. then i guess Sergeant First Class William James was right after all.

bila abang long berblog

Abang Long adalah seorang lelaki yang sangat lelaki pendek kata a very typical man... malay man for that matter. not that it's a bad thing. First impression towards him would be "dood this guy, u better not mess around with him or he'll bash your face off". However, throughout a few years knowing him with my lovely sister Anna, I've seen the part of if that Anna always talks about; the funny part, the cute part and the groggy part. well that's normal. at first it's hard to believe that this 6 foot something guy can be cute... but after a while he can be cute attitude wise.

Lately i saw a new side of him, to be quite honest i would never thought that he is a reading kind of person (sorry abang long) but then one day he bought a book by a politician (i think now an ex politician) who has become a writer. I thought it's just a one off thingie but the next couple of week i saw him with a new book. and i thought to myself, wow the dude is something. And he really took care of the book (i.e he wrapped it up with plastic).

Then one day i saw his status on facebook saying; "my blog is up, just completed my entry" or something like that. i was like erm yeah sure why not. then just now as i was walking home from my class, Anna texted me and gave me the url of abang long's blog. so with curiosity in my head i head home and opened up his blog. my lord he sure can write. a long one to say the least.
similar to Anna's blog abang long's blog is full of things that made you think and not to mention long entry as well.

he can definitely write and his writing is not the dull kind of writing. he sort of puts his soul into it and that's something new from him as well. well now i think abang long holds no surprises anymore because he as surpasses the level that he can do pretty much anything

feel free to visit his blog :daritongkosongkeketongketong.blogspot.com

cheers to abang long

In The Mood for Gusti Putri

*sigh* i woke up this morning with a song that i have not heard for along time. Mind you it was playing in my head. It was one of the songs from Puteri Gunung Ledang The Musical (PGLTM) it was called Melaka Terbilang. From that moment on pretty much all the songs that i could remember plays in my head.
The fact that I am in Malacca contributes to the songs...

*sigh* it was the loveliest musical that i have ever watched.

and the songs, people might think that it's just a bunch of songs that is nice but they could not feel the magic of the song. This is because they were not there to feel the magic of PGLTM. *sigh* i can still see Tiara on stage on a "mountain" singing he heart out when Tuah decided to sacrifice his love for the sake of the Sultan.

How love can make people do things that they do not want to do. Unfortunately they will have to make the decision and once the decision has been made, they have to face the repercussion. We will never know if the choice or decision that we made will lead us to a rainbow or it will take us to the pit of Hell. Just like Tuah, he knows that it was a painful decision to make, but he had to because had to obey the Sultan's order. Unfortunately he was too foolish not to trust his heart. This is just my opinion, maybe he had no choice, it's either his heart or his head. Hence i guess he'd rather have his heart broken rather than his head rolling on the floor.

it's a story of how painful it is when the one you love had to let you go. in this case letting you go to a tyrant. *sigh* such a pity. A love that could be a legend ends when eyes are blinded by so called "sacrifice" but not knowing that the one that got left will not be able to move on and will dwell in the past.

anywas on a lighter note,
PGLTM is the best local musical so far (ye la budget dekat nak berjuta2 kan?) and the music fits well with each and every mood of the whole play.

sape ada the soundtrack.... nak pinjam!!!!

A New Life

Melaka.
This is my new life. Specifically, Lendu. It's a small town (or area) located about 5 minutes away from Alor Gajah town and about half an hour away from Melaka City.

UiTM Campus Alor Gajah.
This is my new social life. I am now serving the place where my entire adult life (late teen early adult) starts.

I report duty in Campus Alor Gajah at about 9.15 am on Monday, 3rd August 2009. Then at about 4.30 pm i have my first class. Oh by the way i am teaching BEL120 (Basic English Language - i guess)

know what? i hate writing like this...

MOving here is a tough decision that i have to make. Teaching is not really what i had in mind when i completed my degree. i mean come on la... i am still young to be a person standing in front of the class and yapping alone. however, something told me that i need to take up that path and give it shot. so after some event that happened that is beyond my control and the call that opened up the opportunity. i took up the challenge and return back to where it all started - UITM Kampus Alor Gajah (lendu....)

been two weeks now and to be quite honest i have no qualms here. The place is peaceful (a bit too peaceful actually) and the cost of living is not rocketing high. so i am at peace with the place.

the students, i might say that at first i was quite skeptical about them. however, after several meetings with them i think i was being too quick to judge. they're a bunch of kids who are excited to leave home and start a new life outside school. kind of reminds me of my time here long long long time ago. i am really looking forward to teach them whatever i can and to help them with their language (eh dah macam buat esey plak shhhesh!)

so life starts a new here no more life in kl. occasionally i will return to kl but i guess it will be a very very very rare occasion. i have to start a new life here with a new vision and mission and a new focus. it is tough, it's really is but i have to swallow it and move on.

people have move on falliq stop wallowing and move on as well. the world might end (sooner or later) but it hasn't so buck up and move on... life's at stake now. u screw up, the will screw up as well... think about it... gaaaaaaaaa....

a boy on the train

it was a fine day. i opened the shop and ran it without aiza. today there were only nana, amy and i of which we are the three newbies in the shop. thank god there were no sudden tsunami of children today *sigh* (of relief) so basically the day went fine plus i found out there was a job as a TESL teacher with very very good pay and very very lineant time (3 hours per day) so now i am thinking of breaking the news to aiza tomorrow hope she's okay with it.

everything went fine until about 7.43 p.m at KL Central. Crap the platform which i had to wait for my train home was pack full of people. i have no idea where they came from. i know it's the rush hour but it's just rediculous.

i just don't understand what's wrong with KTM Komuter. Off peak hour the system is on go. on time (sometimes) hence there's not that many people waiting. However, during peak hours, delayed train la train cancelled la it's really anoying. Komuter is the only way to get from Kl to the other side of KL and it's really annoying that the komuter system is like poop!

anyhows, as i was about to reach my destination, the stopped at one of the station to pick up passengers. came in this indian boy. small about 10 or 11 not more i suppose. he had to stand close to me as the train was still packed (demmit). as i was composing myself from falling apart in such small space with lotsa people, i heard a small voice, saying something. i ignored it, then i heard it again. I looked at the boy and i saw him looking at me saying in malay + indian accent "mr boleh tolong saya? ada 2 ringgit?" meaning sir could you help me? do you have two ringgit? i shaked my head mainly because i was shocked and i could barely move my hand to take my wallet.
then i saw him moved slightly to another guy next to me. the guy ignored him (well either he could not hear the boy or he chose to not to hear him). the train stopped a station after the station the boy boarded and he disembark the train with weary and worry look.

i don't know why he wanted the 2 ringgit and i do not know what he need it for. i wonder what does the parents do or does he even have any for that matter. at this moment i am wondering where is he now and what is he doing, has he gotten his two ringgit?

would i have reacted differently in a different environment (i.e not so pack train)?
how would you react? honestly?

Instinct

Now normally i don't blog about movies ala review. However, i feel that i need to write about this movie (although i feel that it's kinda too late).

The movie "The Last House on The Left" has a rather long name for a movie i might say. Anyhow, this movie came from, to me the genius of it's genre - thriller, Wes Craven. He is the man who introduced us with the serial killer who stalks his prey and talk to them on the phone with freaky voice. If you do not know what movie i am talking about, it's the Scream trilogy.

Okay, if you're too young to know about Scream, you might know The Hills Have Eyes and The Hills Have Eyes 2 apart from that our all time favourite horror movie; Nightmare on Elm Street. He is a true genius in horror and thriller.

Anyhow if you are a big fan of blood, gory, smashing and anything related to those three words. I suggest you go and watch it. You will NOT regret.

Well in order to avoid spoiler. I might say that the movie sees how human can go beyond his/her capacity to protect the ones they love and to seek revenge upon those who hurt the ones they love.

it's very typical (in a good way) of Wes to put the victim in a position where he/she needs to push to the limit to survive (watch Hills Have Eyes and you'll know what i'm talking about)

I like this because it often makes me wonder do we really have the capacity to go beyond out ability when situation pushes us.

Can we really be 5 times stronger when we need to be? (was about to write 10 but it's kind of exaggeration)
Can we really lose our senses?

I was placed in a difficult situation, i.e my mugged incident and i do not know if i could go and slam the mugger's face or anything. Maybe it was not the same i don't know.

I am interested with the tag line:

"If bad people hurt someone you love, how far would you go to hurt them back?"

a question we need to ponder upon...