when dream shatters

well... sorry for being dramatic in the title.

let's be frank, only a handful of lucky bastards are able to achieve their dream (through hard way and the easy way) what happened to the rest?

you know, dreams are like pieces of thin glass, it is so difficult to make yet it is so fragile that it can be broken into pieces anytime.

i am never a pessimistic person. i always believe that whatever happens, there must be a very logical reason behind it. or something else awaits me i this dream does not come true. But to what extend can we actually hold on?

i am not whining just expressing my feelings.

i don't remember the time when i was accepted to do something because of what i am good at.

i will always get blind sided due to my looks, my inexperience, my background etc. There are always reasons for me not to be accepted to be part of something. While the only thing that I have is not enough to ensure my place there.

damn it!


i REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT THAT JOB! I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO WORK THERE... ANYTHING

-that's it-