Tuesday, December 30, 2008

He's not that bad after all...

yesterday (29th December) marks the final day of my gruesome days of shoot.
as much as i like it to come to an end, i felt a tinge so sadness to leave the hustle and bustle and the loooooong agonizing wait.
fortunately, as the curtain abt to draw, i finally got the chance to talk to mr hero guy. and i must say that he is not THAT bad after all, just that we started off at the wrong end.

We talked and he shared some of his knowledge about the industry and i noticed that he is kind of religious. He inserted some analogy about life and religion.
When he share what he knows, that really burns my spirit to go on and learn and try and make it big.

actually he might be kinda rough and has the mouth of a nasty monster but deep inside he is a nice person...

i will remember that moment forever :)


Friday, December 26, 2008

come home

Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn
There’s someone I’ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They’re in their own place trying to make it right
But I’m tired of justifying
So i say you’ll..

Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come home

[Verse 2]
I get lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain’t as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..Yeahh
Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud
Until then

Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home

Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
So hear this now

Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home

this is a song sung by one republic (now got updated version fea. sara bareilles the one who sang Love Song and Between the line)
it is a song about love and missing the one u love and clinging on the hope that he/she will stay with you because he/she is the source of your love

i really love this song
it makes me cry every time i listen to this song...

yes ANNA i cry alot LOL

i cry because i will remember the love of my other half to me and how i might not survive without that person~~~

nuff said
(gosh i blogged alot today)

p/s thanks K for letting me know the updated version of the song luv ya lil kiddo

..and the Spirit went away~~

if i were the city i would scream too

Last night the whole gang watched Spirit in the spirit of Chrismas LOL.
we were all hyped up to watch it (well not really we wanted to watch bedtime story but it was full and t he next show was at 1.15 am).
My sis and i went and bought the tix while my other half waited at Dome with our other sisters.
So at the ticket counter we bought the ticket the only available seats left was 5 rows from the screen. Both of us was abit skeptic about the distance but the guys at the counter said "no.. it's okay usually if i go and watch movie i will sit at the from these seat will not hurt your neck" (at the end of the show we learnt that he lied LOL)

So my sis and i were contemplating where will miss F be seated. in the end she sat
between my sis and the other sis. pity them...

(half of the spirit went away when F comes along)

at the movie... the movie starts the 1st half and hour was good
"she's my lover, she's all that i have, she's my life, and i am her spirit, and she is the love of my life..."
basically the whole 1 and a half hour was about that. seriously. if you think Sin City was bad... beware! things could get nastier with Spirit, at least u can see half naked ladies in Sin city but not in Spirit.

The story is actually about obsession...

- The Spirit's obsession with Ladies (yes he sees his city as a lady...gross isn't it?)and the Octopus (no don't get confuse with Dr. Octopus from Spiderman. in fact this octopus doesn't have 8 hands or tentacles for that matter and now i am confused)

- Sand Seref's obsession with bling-blings (she started off liking diamond and finally she wanted to get the Golden Fleece)

- Octopus's obsession with (no... not with black ink or tentacles) being immortal being a god or the next best thing (according to Silken Floss) and wanting hereceles' blood.

- Silken Floss obsession with her look ( i mean she can spot different looks and still look mighty fine)

- Lorelei Rox's obsession with The spirit (well along with most of the ladies - and occasionally guys - in Central City USA) and she's a god of death and also water spirit... nuff said

so basically it's about obsession i guess the movie should be named obsession so it will not cause any confusion to the audience.

and hence, the other half of the spirit went away after the movie and it makes me having monologues in m head like The Spirit does. Crap!

i would give it 2 1/2 stars mainly because i had some comedy elements in it and at least it does not make me go to sleep... bravo!

but then again we do need some obsession once in a while in our life right? so that we can actually move forward...

another lesson learn in 2008


nuff said


Yes = Good thing

Recently i watched Yes Man at the movie and i have to tell you that it was a really nice movie. Funny, yet it has a lot of enlightenment towards life. Such as:

- we must not think too much abt thing. be more spontaneous
- life is lived once, so make the most of it while you're still breathing.
- as much as it is hard to do saying yes can lead to something better. sooner or later.
- jim carey is a very versatile actor.

well maybe the last one is not embedded in the movie but i learnt it from the movie too.


lately i have been doing things that i do not like to do, which is reporting things that i do t o my other half. (yes my dear i do not like it... but it's ok as long as you are happy). at first it was kind of difficult but all in all i learn to cope with it. and guess what? something good came up!

so i saw this person at one of social networking page (M) and i added this person up and let's name this person K. As I added K up, i told my other to check K up because K is kinda cute due to the age (17 - yes that makes me some sort of a pedophilia - shut up!) and at the same time i added K up at an instant messenger we call YM. so as i was talking to K i was updating my other half to and my other half added K up also because they have similarities. They both LOVE Britney Spears. And so they got to talking i talk to K and K talks to my other half. And K said you guys are sooooo cute. and K changed his status on YM to "meet the cute couple" the i corrected K i said change it to meet the cuteEST couple and so K changed it.

from then on, K, my other half and I communicate. K learn abt us, and we learn K. K's other half etc.
we became good friends (although it was only like 2 days but so far so good)
hopefully this will last LOL

yeah i believe that when we sign up to do things that we don't like sooner or later as the ball rolls, it will get better, once we get the hang of it.

another lesson learn in 2008. very good. very very good.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

the curtain call

the year has come to it's end yet again.
usually i would go and say what the hell had happened to my 365 1/4 days?
but now i am taking a more positive approach in facing the final days of '08 and embarking on the dawn of '09. I mean look at the bright side i am FINALLY completing my Bachelor's Degree after eons of studying. so there is no reason to be stressed or pissed that 08 has come the end.
'08 has been a great year and i finally felt that i am living my life to the fullest (okay maybe not YET but getting there working in progress)
in '08 i've learnt that:

1. i am still in love with the same person that i loved in '07 and will still love that person even more in '09.
2. i've learnt the hard way on who's my friend and who's not. (i am not easy to forgive kinda person LOL)
3. i've become closer to the people i thought will rip my head off i say something that's not right (that's my sis LOL)
4. in this year too i've gained lots of experience which includes:

a) i have experienced how tough it was being a teacher.
b) i gained experienced working in a boutique
c) i am now experiencing working in an office
d) i learnt how to use mac and being a designer (it's not easy LOL)
e) i am experiencing the fist of acting. (it's not as glitzy as it looked or sound but i believe that in '09 i will have my break in the industry)
f) i had a gist of Quickie (although it was not for long)

5. i met henry of quickie
6. i manage up get connected back with the people i lsat met abt 2 or 3 years ago. and it's refreshing to know how much each of us has grow.

all the reasons above are the reason why i should not feel like i've wasted 08. i had lived a great year and i am looking forward to have a greater year in 09.

so... sayonara 08 great to live in u and
welcome 09 hope to have greater experience with you...

so where will we celebrate the curtain call of 08 and the rise of 09?
Pavilion maybe?
*wink* *wink* to my sis LOL

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

The Last Time

It took me a while to actually put this up. I dont't know why i have to think a lot in putting this up. but here goes.

when was the last time i went to watch a movie that I WANT?
when was the last time i buy things that i want?
when was the last time i spend my time with my other half just strolling around?
when was the last time i go where ever i want without having to think about lots of things?
when was the last time i eat McD with my other half?
when was the last time i bought myself a book?

i can't remember all this. it seems like such a long time ago.
i want to do the things i did before. the things we did before.
now things have change, seems like time has grown shorter on me, u, us and everybody.
at times i feel like i don't even know who i am or even worse who u are...

i don't like this...

seriously i do...

i want to eat mcd

seriously i do

i want to buy books

seriously i do...

nuff said!

Saturday, December 6, 2008


it's been a while since i used that word. thanks to my sister miss anna R who reminded me of that word. not that she is superficial or aything she just wanted to say something to my other half but couldn't find the right word. and the word is... you're right! superficial.

superficial is sounds scientific to any laymen. right? but it's in our blood. we are superficial, like it or not. we ALWAYS judge the book by it's cover. don't give me the i'm not that kind of person. example, we choose ones with the best packaging, the brightest color, the biggest or the one with the best promotion when we are choosing things to buy. there a simple example of superficial. and like it or not, we kind of imply that on human being. let's face it, we want to be around people who are good looking or at the very least pleasent. despite the fact they are a total B***H or jerks etc.
no doubt there are not so good looking people who are B***Hes and JERKs too. however, there are also people who are goodlooking and nice and all. these are what we call blessings.

i am now witnessing my sister and my other half discussing, planning and doing god knows what related to work and they are totally busy. schedules are full to the max. WHAT THE HELL!!!! hahahahaha

here i am writing blog and browsing the net. i browsed this modelling website to check the models out and i was like "c'mon i am goodlooking than this person" and by saying this i am not THAT goodlooking okay. and these people get jobs etc. why can't i? maybe because i complaint alot?
so what... some people complain and they get what they want. well maybe because they do something about it right? but i did something, doesn't it count? i am not being grateful but... gosh... here i go again... falliq stop rationalizing urself...


if not,


nuff said

"The city is at a war
Playtime for the young and rich
Ignore me if you see me 'cause I just don't give a shit
The city is at war
Bless the young and rich
With designer drugs and designer friends"

"the city is at war" - cobra starship

- hey i have one of those things, designers friends :D

my final final words




Tuesday, December 2, 2008

you were born to be a star
-anna r-

so finally i reached the day of my shoot. for a first day it was CRAP! but i guess that's the price you gotta pay to climb the heaven's stairs to reach the star. to get up there is extremely difficult.

first day
my call time was at 2 on a friday. it was bad enough that they kinda ask me to find a pair of cargo pants and a pair of black boots last minute. on that very day, i had to wait for 9 hours to start my scene (of which lasts for about 5 - 10 minutes ONLY) that's the downside of acting with a big star.

second day
the call time was at 8 in the morning. oh yeah the night before the shoot ends at 12 a.m then my friend picked me up because he wanted to talked about something with me. (and i thought i had big problems) we ended our meeting at abt 3 and i had to wake up at 6 something to catch the train to get to the set which is located smack in the middle of the city center. when i arrived at about 8.30, as usual, mr. superstar is still not around. this time he made an improvement, he arrived at about 9.30 or something. my scene starts at about 3 p.m and because mr. superstar has an appointment he had to left early. one good thing about working with mr. superstar is that if he leaves the set, meaning my presence there is not needed anymore. which means i left at about 6 something or seven.

i was happy to meet my other half arriving (although looking rather tired) with a smile. it gave me such relief. so we went to get crafty to meet the gang.we stayed there until 10. then, me, my other half and our sister make our way to pavilion to meet her sweet heart. we chilled there until closing time (which was about 12.30) finally we arrived home at about 1 a.m.

oh on the second day i met siti fazurina (the one who potrayed Anita in the same name title comedy series). she is a nice lady, not as snobbish as as i thought (and others), soft spoken not so diva. in a nutshell she is nice.

30th no shoot - to honour my sister's birthday :D

3rd day
call time: 12 p.m
actual shoot : 3 p.m

basically the day went smoothly. we met our third member of the technician team. miss watie from the disfunct. girl group, elite. she is a nice lady. totally friendly and funny too. she fits in the group nicely. with achong around we end up in tears (of laughter) every other minute. nothing much going on just that the shooting ended at 1 a.m. thank god miss watie leaves somewhere around the neighbourhood where my other half live so without a tinge of shame, i asked for if she could give me a ride. i think she had no other choice but to say yes. i felt bad but i had to go home or else i am stuck there.
all in all the day went on just nice.
up to this point there were no script
(maybe i should try being a mime actor)

today (4th day)
call time: 1 p.m
actual shoot: ...

so i arrived at the location. wet from sweat, tired, and sick. i arrived took my lunch and wait and wait and wait and wait...
apparently there were no scene for us for the day. which was kinda crap. but hey i got free food. :D
to i left the location at about 7.
oh they took me as a stand in for mr. superstar who had to leave early.

so here iam tired sick and kinda hungry (though i have no appetite) up dating my blog LOL


i guess all these are tests to see if i really want to make it. right?

oh another thing it really baffles me one of the extra, acted in alot of commercials. and (not to brag or sound like an extreme narcissist) i think he is not that good looking... crap!


i'll see when i can write again till then i shall endure all this with lotsa patience
and also the love and support from those who loves me



nuff said